This past weekend was pretty mellow for me besides Thursday. Like i mentioned in last Wednesday's blog, I went out with the intention of hunting for chicks. In the process of this, I got totally lit. Normally that doesn't happen on a Thursday for me, but I was with my Regis boys and figured what the hell, we can always cab back to their place. I ended the night with 2 new numbers in the phone, but neither looks too promising for hanging out anytime soon. That's all good with me... Givesd me someone else to drunk text besides my ex's (example:Last weekend).
Firday i hung out with a lady friend and watched the new Robin Hood movie. Thoroughly disappointing! The movie was very slow and tried to ramp up the 2.5 hours by ending with about 15-20 mins of solid action. I didn't enjoy that much, although I did watch the whole thing. Overall, i'd give it a C+.
There is one big thing that I think I have been learning over the past couple months, but seemed to come to fruition this weekend... You ever noticed on everyone's facebook how they might post a quote as their status, or right under their picture they have a quote that they supposedly "live by" or that "depicts them perfectly". I 'm calling bullshit on 90% of these.
Let me be the first to call myself a hipocrite. The following quote is on my FB...
"Life is too short to wake up in the morning with regrets...so love the people who treat you right, forget about the ones who don't, and believe that everything happens for a reason."
I regret a lot of things, and I certainly don't forget about the people who don't treat me right. I usually fall back on the same old people and forgive and forget all too easliy and frequently. I'm not saying that I don't try to make this quote a true statement in my own life, because I do. I try hard, it just doesn't always seem to represent me well.
I have thought more and more about this, because when I meet someone, a girl for example, I usually look at their quotes to see what kind of person they might be through those, but I often find out that the same person doesn't represent those quotes at all. Example 2...
"At some point, you have to make a decision. Boundaries don't keep others out, they fence you in. Life is messy. That's how we're made. So you can waste your life drawing lines, or you can live your life crossing them."
BULLSHIT!
This quote was on the FB of a girl who I dated for about a month when all of a sudden she told me, "things are moving too fast" & "i'm not ready to let you in". If you really live by the previous quote, then why would you not want to just give things a chance and see where they go? I don't get it, but I guess you can choose to live by anything at any given time and then take it back whenever you want. That's the best quality of a human am I right... The right to choose.
I once thought that words could make everything ok... If I said something meaningfull, it would make a difference. Someone could bring ease to my thoughts by some phrase. I'm learning though, that no matter what, people lie. It's hard to trust someone's words. They only way true trust can be built is from actions. If you can back your words up with actions that show the exact same thing, then I will have no reason but to believe you.
Monday, October 11, 2010
Thursday, October 7, 2010
Dumbass move of the day V2
Classic "door in the face" moment of shame today at lunch...
So me and a buddy from work went to buffalo wild wings lunch and on our way out, there were 2 very attractive women at the front waiting for their take out i'm guessing, because they were sitting down and it wasn't busy at all. Anyways, John was walking in front of me and was the first to the door so he was the one to open the left side of the double door... As I was making my way to the door, I was totally staring at one of the girls as she looked over at me. I smiled a bit and she was smiling back when... SMACK!
I didn't quite make it out of the left side of the door that John was holding open.
While i was completely engulfed by this womens smile a didn't notice i was no longer headed for the open door, but rather the closed door on the right, and sure enough I walked right into it. I heard some laughing coming from the direction of the girls, but I just looked up at the door, smirked, shook my head shamefully , and continued out the open door.
Way to be Ryan, way to be.
So me and a buddy from work went to buffalo wild wings lunch and on our way out, there were 2 very attractive women at the front waiting for their take out i'm guessing, because they were sitting down and it wasn't busy at all. Anyways, John was walking in front of me and was the first to the door so he was the one to open the left side of the double door... As I was making my way to the door, I was totally staring at one of the girls as she looked over at me. I smiled a bit and she was smiling back when... SMACK!
I didn't quite make it out of the left side of the door that John was holding open.
While i was completely engulfed by this womens smile a didn't notice i was no longer headed for the open door, but rather the closed door on the right, and sure enough I walked right into it. I heard some laughing coming from the direction of the girls, but I just looked up at the door, smirked, shook my head shamefully , and continued out the open door.
Way to be Ryan, way to be.
Wednesday, October 6, 2010
Happy Hump Day.
It is Wednesday, and officially 2 weeks till my birthday! Usually by wednesday I already have a plan or two set up for the up coming weekend.
As of right now... Nothing.
I have no plans set up and that actually brings me down a bit. I know that something will end up happening, but I usually get through the work week by looking forward to something at the end, and... yea... I look forward to some sleep i guess.
I was actually thinking of throwing a party on friday to try and entice last sunday's lunch date of coming down to hang out for a bit. (She's not quite 21 so the bar won't work) But we'll see. If she's got plan already then forget the party, lets go out and meet some new chicks.
Awhile ago I posted a blog about how thursday night were no longer the same to me as they were when I was in college or when I first got out. Well, i'm gonna change that back again tomorrow. For the last 10 months I have tried to be serious with multiple women and I keep falling to the same result... not what they want at the time. So, i'm going back to thursday being "ladies night". I'm going out tomorrow to hunt for tail and fill the cell with a handful of strange numbers. How's that sound for starting off the weekend? I agree... Solid!
As of right now... Nothing.
I have no plans set up and that actually brings me down a bit. I know that something will end up happening, but I usually get through the work week by looking forward to something at the end, and... yea... I look forward to some sleep i guess.
I was actually thinking of throwing a party on friday to try and entice last sunday's lunch date of coming down to hang out for a bit. (She's not quite 21 so the bar won't work) But we'll see. If she's got plan already then forget the party, lets go out and meet some new chicks.
Awhile ago I posted a blog about how thursday night were no longer the same to me as they were when I was in college or when I first got out. Well, i'm gonna change that back again tomorrow. For the last 10 months I have tried to be serious with multiple women and I keep falling to the same result... not what they want at the time. So, i'm going back to thursday being "ladies night". I'm going out tomorrow to hunt for tail and fill the cell with a handful of strange numbers. How's that sound for starting off the weekend? I agree... Solid!
Monday, October 4, 2010
4 Day Wedding Weekend!
2 of my best friends got married this weekend, and I couldn't be happier for them. We threw the bachelor party on Wednesday night and it was AWESOME!! I did a damn good job of throwing that thing together i must say. (A little gloating never hurt anyone)
We put a great "Bachelor bucket list" shirt together for Nick. My favorite task for the night was when Nick approached a table of 3 girls at this bar and had them complete task #7... Have someone show you their fake orgasm. All 3 girls were down for this one, and of course gave their best "performances". I must say, I was pretty turned on after this. What guy wouldn't be right? So the story goes... What goes on at bachelor party shouldn't really be discussed, so if y'all want know what really goes on, I'm sure you can find a party going on sometime at some downtown bar.
Thursday was SO nice to have off. I was able to sleep in, run a few errands and watch Iron Man 2. It was great. Then went to the rehearsal and the dinner, which was just like any other wedding rehearsal, so nothing to report there. At the dinner however, we received our groomsmen gifts. My best friend is obsessed with the original converse shoes. Well, since our tuxes were black with purple vests, he got us all converse shoes that were black with purple tongues. They also say groomsmen on the back... SICK!! I'm not a big fan of the original converse, but these ones are soo cool. Plus, now i have shoes to wear to the Rockies games... Next year :-(
Friday was the actual wedding that was great. I have never seen Jess smile so big and so much in the entire 6 years I've known her. The reception was great, with some totally bomb food!! I had a great time, and did a little too much dirty dancing. And when I say dirty, I mean REAL dirty. Ya know what though, if you didn't like it, fuck it, look away. I was drunk and love to dance so i didn't (and still don't) care. Now there were two things that disappointed me about the wedding...
1) The photographer was SHIT! Sorry Jess, but I have been in 6 weddings now, and that guy didn't impress me one bit. His background choice was crap, and he never changed it up. Take some different pics in different places dude! Plus, during a handful of the photos, i totally had a branch in front on my face between me and him. I totally understand that it's not about me, but I'm just saying that whoever was on the same end as me at any point, is gonna have a branch blocking their head/face. Super disappointing.
2) Went home ALONE! I had a totally hot bridesmaid who was flirting with me the night before, and at the beginning of the reception, but as the night went on and the drunker she got, the less interested in me she became and the more interested in some douche she dated a little while back. I also had a friend come with me as my date, and she was the one I was totally getting freaky with on the dance floor. I thought for sure that was a done deal... But she had to work at 6am and had already set up a ride home. Didn't know that till the ride showed up. HMMM... Lonely, but oh well.
Y'all have already heard about Sunday....
So overall, the weekend was great. It was amazing to have 4 days off from work and just relax. I had a ton of stress in my life during September, and this weekend was a great way to end September and start off October. After this weekend I realized I have a lot going for myself, but that I also have a lot of loose ends in my life that I need to clean up. Although I have many friends in relationships, I don't have to HAVE one as well. Single life has worked out for me just fine, and I need to stop looking at the negatives of being single and start looking at the positives.
We put a great "Bachelor bucket list" shirt together for Nick. My favorite task for the night was when Nick approached a table of 3 girls at this bar and had them complete task #7... Have someone show you their fake orgasm. All 3 girls were down for this one, and of course gave their best "performances". I must say, I was pretty turned on after this. What guy wouldn't be right? So the story goes... What goes on at bachelor party shouldn't really be discussed, so if y'all want know what really goes on, I'm sure you can find a party going on sometime at some downtown bar.
Thursday was SO nice to have off. I was able to sleep in, run a few errands and watch Iron Man 2. It was great. Then went to the rehearsal and the dinner, which was just like any other wedding rehearsal, so nothing to report there. At the dinner however, we received our groomsmen gifts. My best friend is obsessed with the original converse shoes. Well, since our tuxes were black with purple vests, he got us all converse shoes that were black with purple tongues. They also say groomsmen on the back... SICK!! I'm not a big fan of the original converse, but these ones are soo cool. Plus, now i have shoes to wear to the Rockies games... Next year :-(
Friday was the actual wedding that was great. I have never seen Jess smile so big and so much in the entire 6 years I've known her. The reception was great, with some totally bomb food!! I had a great time, and did a little too much dirty dancing. And when I say dirty, I mean REAL dirty. Ya know what though, if you didn't like it, fuck it, look away. I was drunk and love to dance so i didn't (and still don't) care. Now there were two things that disappointed me about the wedding...
1) The photographer was SHIT! Sorry Jess, but I have been in 6 weddings now, and that guy didn't impress me one bit. His background choice was crap, and he never changed it up. Take some different pics in different places dude! Plus, during a handful of the photos, i totally had a branch in front on my face between me and him. I totally understand that it's not about me, but I'm just saying that whoever was on the same end as me at any point, is gonna have a branch blocking their head/face. Super disappointing.
2) Went home ALONE! I had a totally hot bridesmaid who was flirting with me the night before, and at the beginning of the reception, but as the night went on and the drunker she got, the less interested in me she became and the more interested in some douche she dated a little while back. I also had a friend come with me as my date, and she was the one I was totally getting freaky with on the dance floor. I thought for sure that was a done deal... But she had to work at 6am and had already set up a ride home. Didn't know that till the ride showed up. HMMM... Lonely, but oh well.
Y'all have already heard about Sunday....
So overall, the weekend was great. It was amazing to have 4 days off from work and just relax. I had a ton of stress in my life during September, and this weekend was a great way to end September and start off October. After this weekend I realized I have a lot going for myself, but that I also have a lot of loose ends in my life that I need to clean up. Although I have many friends in relationships, I don't have to HAVE one as well. Single life has worked out for me just fine, and I need to stop looking at the negatives of being single and start looking at the positives.
Sunday, October 3, 2010
Sunday Lunch Date
What a long weekend it has been. Bachelor part on wed, rehersal dinner on thursday, wedding friday, and then just pong with friends last night. I'm going to wait till tomorrow (like always) to reflect on this weekends events, but in the mean time I have a huge thing weighing on my mind...
Last week i mentioned that I had a plan to "keep the fire going" with Jesse. Well, I never really had an opportunity to put this plan in place, but then again, I never really tried that hard. Rejection is a hard thing for me to face, as i'm sure it is for everyone, so I'm having a slight fear of throwing myself out there with this plan, because I just don't want to hear that two letter word that starts with N. Speaking of that fear, I was recently texting and ex asking if she wanted to hang out. Not as a date, i just had an extra ticket to the baseball game and couldn't find anyone to go with me, so I was just going down a list. Well, she couldn't go but said that we should go to dinner sometime soon. So of course I agreed.
Here is a quick run down of my past with this girl. Met her at a restaurant. Things started really casual and only texted every once in awhile. Hung out one time and things just caught fire. Hungout regularly for about 3 months when her dad was diagnosed with cancer. Also, she was moving to West Virgina for school in August. So in an effort to spend as much time with her dad, the family, and her friends before she left, things with me were the last thing on her mind. She moved back to CO earlier this year. And now here we are.
Well, we never decided on a dinner, but while drunk texting my entire address book on firday night, I secured a lunch date for earlier today. Now i always hear of people who seperate but then see each other again and "never skip a beat". What does that mean exactly?? Lunch for me today was just ok. Rach looked great, but I just didn't know what to think of what was going on. Was this a date? Like and actual date? or nothing more than a friend date? How do you know without asking? But if i ask, and it really wasn't a date, then will things be weird? So many questions!!
Lunch only last a little over an hour and when I dropped Rach off back home, we hugged and she told me to text her when I got home. Of course I did, and I told her it was good to see her. She text back with, "It was great to see you." But never mentioned that we should do it again, or anything like that. So i'm thinking that it was probably just "ok" for her too, whether this was a date or just a friends date. I'm gonna try and not think about it much, but just keep things the way they started with us in the very beginning... casually texting.
Untill tomorrow... Night ya'll.
Last week i mentioned that I had a plan to "keep the fire going" with Jesse. Well, I never really had an opportunity to put this plan in place, but then again, I never really tried that hard. Rejection is a hard thing for me to face, as i'm sure it is for everyone, so I'm having a slight fear of throwing myself out there with this plan, because I just don't want to hear that two letter word that starts with N. Speaking of that fear, I was recently texting and ex asking if she wanted to hang out. Not as a date, i just had an extra ticket to the baseball game and couldn't find anyone to go with me, so I was just going down a list. Well, she couldn't go but said that we should go to dinner sometime soon. So of course I agreed.
Here is a quick run down of my past with this girl. Met her at a restaurant. Things started really casual and only texted every once in awhile. Hung out one time and things just caught fire. Hungout regularly for about 3 months when her dad was diagnosed with cancer. Also, she was moving to West Virgina for school in August. So in an effort to spend as much time with her dad, the family, and her friends before she left, things with me were the last thing on her mind. She moved back to CO earlier this year. And now here we are.
Well, we never decided on a dinner, but while drunk texting my entire address book on firday night, I secured a lunch date for earlier today. Now i always hear of people who seperate but then see each other again and "never skip a beat". What does that mean exactly?? Lunch for me today was just ok. Rach looked great, but I just didn't know what to think of what was going on. Was this a date? Like and actual date? or nothing more than a friend date? How do you know without asking? But if i ask, and it really wasn't a date, then will things be weird? So many questions!!
Lunch only last a little over an hour and when I dropped Rach off back home, we hugged and she told me to text her when I got home. Of course I did, and I told her it was good to see her. She text back with, "It was great to see you." But never mentioned that we should do it again, or anything like that. So i'm thinking that it was probably just "ok" for her too, whether this was a date or just a friends date. I'm gonna try and not think about it much, but just keep things the way they started with us in the very beginning... casually texting.
Untill tomorrow... Night ya'll.
Wednesday, September 29, 2010
FRIDAY? YES!! But not 5 o'clock yet
Today is technically my Friday... HURRAY!! I took thursday and friday off of work for all the wedding stuff going on with my friends. I think i really need this time off. I'm not sure if i'm completely burned out from work, or burned out on life in general at the moment, but I just have no motivation. I need to have some serious fun and forget about all the stressfull things that have been burning in my head lately.
Tonight is a GREAT night to start having fun. For the last few weeks I have been putting the bachelor party togther and I am sooo STOKED! It's gonna be pretty epic i think. I'm just hoping that it all works out how I have planned... but... if i've learned anything about life, it's that NOTHING ever goes as planned. So... lets just hope that the utter chaos is good and we all have a good time.
Is it 5 yet?? NOPE?? DAMN... not even 1 :-(
Tonight is a GREAT night to start having fun. For the last few weeks I have been putting the bachelor party togther and I am sooo STOKED! It's gonna be pretty epic i think. I'm just hoping that it all works out how I have planned... but... if i've learned anything about life, it's that NOTHING ever goes as planned. So... lets just hope that the utter chaos is good and we all have a good time.
Is it 5 yet?? NOPE?? DAMN... not even 1 :-(
Monday, September 27, 2010
Shocked, yet NOT Surprised... Once Again
This weekend was one of the most disappointing weekends in a long time. Went and smoked hookah (which i love!) on thursday with my 2 best friends, and made ourselves feel old by sitting there looking at all the 18yrs olds in that place. It surprises me how young people look these days, but then again, when I look at pictures of me and my friends from out freshman and sophmore year in college we look SUPER young. Crazy.
Friday had softball where we lost a close heartbreaker and hit up Old C's for some pizza and beer. Made it home and into bed I think around 11pm. Couldn't tell ya the last time I was home that early on a friday night. But hey, I had big plans on Saturday that I didn't want to be tired for... I had to refferee 3 football games in the morning, then go to a family BBQ before heading to the Brad Paisley concert with the new girl Jesse.
Well, Saturday comes around and during halftime of my last game I check my phone and I have a message from Jesse...
In a nut shell, she said that she feels we are very different and that this just isn't going to work. She felt really bad but didn't want me to leave my family BBQ early since she was having those feeling... WTF!?!?!?!? I had just talked to her the night before and she gave me no clue something like this was coming. She had even told me she was excited to see me. I really had no words for her. The only thing I could think of was Queens song, "Another one bites the dust" because that is totally my relationship theme song. Can't keep anyone around longer than a month. Now i'm not looking for sympathy, because I haven't always been the heart broken in a relationship, I have also be the heart breaker, just lately, actually all of 2010, I have been the one that gets dumped... FUCK 2010!
So instead of a concert I went out with my cousins, drank my sorrows away, got hammered, and got some hot Texans phone number... Solid night!!
Sunday came around and I was hung over... BAD! I made it over to a friend house and finished installing the fuel pump on her car... Was a little afraid it wouldn't start right away, but sure enough, that Chevy fired right up :-) Now I can add "Fuel Pumps" to my ever growing mechanic resume. I went home for a nap, watched both my Colorado teams lose, and then had a conversation with Jesse over the phone about what's going on. There were a few things that she told me that I just don't understand... One, last week we were talking about "deal breakers" in a relationship and I mentioned shyness. But I have a specific type of shyness in my head when I said that. There is a difference between being shy and being completely anti social and keeping to yourself the entire time. Jesse freaked because she is shy. Well, i don't believe that, but even if she is, shes not the deal breaker shy I have in my head. So i tried to reassure her of this. Then she follow up by saying how different we are because I've gone sky diving, and swimming with sharks, and she afraid to even dance in public. I don't understand why that's a problem? Just because I'm willing to try things doesn't mean out personalities don't mathc up... am I right?? I asked her if she had ever had a bad time with me, or if she ever felt uncomfortable. She said no, and that she loved hanging out with me and always had a good time. I told her that should tell her something, but apparently my words must have been jibberish. After all the talking, she just came down to the fact that she can't explain how she feels, and that there is something in her gut telling her this isn't going to work and she knows how she is. I'm thinking that last part means that she is already shutting me out and that once she does that she doesn't let people back in. Understandable i guess. But the part about her gut feeling... I can't get it. I'm thinking its just nerves, because it sounds to me that her heart and mind are in different places than her "gut". I Don't know!
So here I am once again... trying to figure out what went wrong this weekend and I feel like it was everything. and the one thing I'm going to change, is that with every other girl I have just let them walk away knowing that they are missing out. This time im not going to do that. I'm gonna give this a few days, then i'm going to completely throw myself out there. I have a plan in place already, and I will fill you in on how that goes later in the week.
Happy Monday to everyone!!
Friday had softball where we lost a close heartbreaker and hit up Old C's for some pizza and beer. Made it home and into bed I think around 11pm. Couldn't tell ya the last time I was home that early on a friday night. But hey, I had big plans on Saturday that I didn't want to be tired for... I had to refferee 3 football games in the morning, then go to a family BBQ before heading to the Brad Paisley concert with the new girl Jesse.
Well, Saturday comes around and during halftime of my last game I check my phone and I have a message from Jesse...
In a nut shell, she said that she feels we are very different and that this just isn't going to work. She felt really bad but didn't want me to leave my family BBQ early since she was having those feeling... WTF!?!?!?!? I had just talked to her the night before and she gave me no clue something like this was coming. She had even told me she was excited to see me. I really had no words for her. The only thing I could think of was Queens song, "Another one bites the dust" because that is totally my relationship theme song. Can't keep anyone around longer than a month. Now i'm not looking for sympathy, because I haven't always been the heart broken in a relationship, I have also be the heart breaker, just lately, actually all of 2010, I have been the one that gets dumped... FUCK 2010!
So instead of a concert I went out with my cousins, drank my sorrows away, got hammered, and got some hot Texans phone number... Solid night!!
Sunday came around and I was hung over... BAD! I made it over to a friend house and finished installing the fuel pump on her car... Was a little afraid it wouldn't start right away, but sure enough, that Chevy fired right up :-) Now I can add "Fuel Pumps" to my ever growing mechanic resume. I went home for a nap, watched both my Colorado teams lose, and then had a conversation with Jesse over the phone about what's going on. There were a few things that she told me that I just don't understand... One, last week we were talking about "deal breakers" in a relationship and I mentioned shyness. But I have a specific type of shyness in my head when I said that. There is a difference between being shy and being completely anti social and keeping to yourself the entire time. Jesse freaked because she is shy. Well, i don't believe that, but even if she is, shes not the deal breaker shy I have in my head. So i tried to reassure her of this. Then she follow up by saying how different we are because I've gone sky diving, and swimming with sharks, and she afraid to even dance in public. I don't understand why that's a problem? Just because I'm willing to try things doesn't mean out personalities don't mathc up... am I right?? I asked her if she had ever had a bad time with me, or if she ever felt uncomfortable. She said no, and that she loved hanging out with me and always had a good time. I told her that should tell her something, but apparently my words must have been jibberish. After all the talking, she just came down to the fact that she can't explain how she feels, and that there is something in her gut telling her this isn't going to work and she knows how she is. I'm thinking that last part means that she is already shutting me out and that once she does that she doesn't let people back in. Understandable i guess. But the part about her gut feeling... I can't get it. I'm thinking its just nerves, because it sounds to me that her heart and mind are in different places than her "gut". I Don't know!
So here I am once again... trying to figure out what went wrong this weekend and I feel like it was everything. and the one thing I'm going to change, is that with every other girl I have just let them walk away knowing that they are missing out. This time im not going to do that. I'm gonna give this a few days, then i'm going to completely throw myself out there. I have a plan in place already, and I will fill you in on how that goes later in the week.
Happy Monday to everyone!!
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