Wednesday, September 29, 2010

FRIDAY? YES!! But not 5 o'clock yet

Today is technically my Friday... HURRAY!! I took thursday and friday off of work for all the wedding stuff going on with my friends. I think i really need this time off. I'm not sure if i'm completely burned out from work, or burned out on life in general at the moment, but I just have no motivation. I need to have some serious fun and forget about all the stressfull things that have been burning in my head lately.
Tonight is a GREAT night to start having fun. For the last few weeks I have been putting the bachelor party togther and I am sooo STOKED! It's gonna be pretty epic i think. I'm just hoping that it all works out how I have planned... but... if i've learned anything about life, it's that NOTHING ever goes as planned. So... lets just hope that the utter chaos is good and we all have a good time.

Is it 5 yet?? NOPE?? DAMN... not even 1 :-(

Monday, September 27, 2010

Shocked, yet NOT Surprised... Once Again

This weekend was one of the most disappointing weekends in a long time. Went and smoked hookah (which i love!) on thursday with my 2 best friends, and made ourselves feel old by sitting there looking at all the 18yrs olds in that place. It surprises me how young people look these days, but then again, when I look at pictures of me and my friends from out freshman and sophmore year in college we look SUPER young. Crazy.

Friday had softball where we lost a close heartbreaker and hit up Old C's for some pizza and beer. Made it home and into bed I think around 11pm. Couldn't tell ya the last time I was home that early on a friday night. But hey, I had big plans on Saturday that I didn't want to be tired for... I had to refferee 3 football games in the morning, then go to a family BBQ before heading to the Brad Paisley concert with the new girl Jesse.

Well, Saturday comes around and during halftime of my last game I check my phone and I have a message from Jesse...
In a nut shell, she said that she feels we are very different and that this just isn't going to work. She felt really bad but didn't want me to leave my family BBQ early since she was having those feeling... WTF!?!?!?!? I had just talked to her the night before and she gave me no clue something like this was coming. She had even told me she was excited to see me. I really had no words for her. The only thing I could think of was Queens song, "Another one bites the dust" because that is totally my relationship theme song. Can't keep anyone around longer than a month. Now i'm not looking for sympathy, because I haven't always been the heart broken in a relationship, I have also be the heart breaker, just lately, actually all of 2010, I have been the one that gets dumped... FUCK 2010!
So instead of a concert I went out with my cousins, drank my sorrows away, got hammered, and got some hot Texans phone number... Solid night!!

Sunday came around and I was hung over... BAD! I made it over to a friend house and finished installing the fuel pump on her car... Was a little afraid it wouldn't start right away, but sure enough, that Chevy fired right up :-)  Now I can add "Fuel Pumps" to my ever growing mechanic resume. I went home for a nap, watched both my Colorado teams lose, and then had a conversation with Jesse over the phone about what's going on. There were a few things that she told me that I just don't understand... One, last week we were talking about "deal breakers" in a relationship and I mentioned shyness. But I have a specific type of shyness in my head when I said that. There is a difference between being shy and being completely anti social and keeping to yourself the entire time. Jesse freaked because she is shy. Well, i don't believe that, but even if she is, shes not the deal breaker shy I have in my head. So i tried to reassure her of this. Then she follow up by saying how different we are because I've gone sky diving, and swimming with sharks, and she afraid to even dance in public. I don't understand why that's a problem? Just because I'm willing to try things doesn't mean out personalities don't mathc up... am I right?? I asked her if she had ever had a bad time with me, or if she ever felt uncomfortable. She said no, and that she loved hanging out with me and always had a good time. I told her that should tell her something, but apparently my words must have been jibberish. After all the talking, she just came down to the fact that she can't explain how she feels, and that there is something in her gut telling her this isn't going to work and she knows how she is. I'm thinking that last part means that she is already shutting me out and that once she does that she doesn't let people back in. Understandable i guess. But the part about her gut feeling... I can't get it. I'm thinking its just nerves, because it sounds to me that her heart and mind are in different places than her "gut". I Don't know!

So here I am once again... trying to figure out what went wrong this weekend and I feel like it was everything. and the one thing I'm going to change, is that with every other girl I have just let them walk away knowing that they are missing out. This time im not going to do that. I'm gonna give this a few days, then i'm going to completely throw myself out there. I have a plan in place already, and I will fill you in on how that goes later in the week.

Happy Monday to everyone!!

Thursday, September 23, 2010

Dumbass move of the Day

Don't you just love the moments in your life when you can truely call your self a dumbass?
Example...
Got my new debit card in the mail yesterday to replace my current one that expires this month. I pulled out my phone not too long ago and called the number on the sticker to activate the new card. After the automatic operator says, "Your new card has been activated" I turn, grab my scissors, and proceed to cut my old card into little tiny pieces in hopes that someone dares to find all the pieces in the trash, put them back together, and steal my identity. HAHA...

Well the jokes on me this time. This dumbass right here grabbed the wrong card to cut up. So as I thought I was cutting up my "Old card" in reality i was chopping away at the card i just activated. Great! Now i have no debit card what so ever since the old one was deactivated when i activated the new one. The best part of this story is when I called my bank's customer support to tell them what i had did and as I got to the part of, "Sooo after i activated it, i accidentally cut it up." I totally heard the woman on the other end chuckle!! Bet my story will be told around the coffee machine tomorrow.
Can't you see it now...
"Get this. So yesterday I had a gentleman on the phone who proceeded to tell me that he activated his new card and then cuts it up!! Who does that? What a dumbass!"

Longest week EVER

Maybe it's just me, but I feel like I have been working 10hr days for 7 days straight... When in reality i've been working more like 7-8hr days for only 3.5 days.

Maybe it's that the end of the month is always slower for me at work and so i just get bored easy.

Maybe it's because both of my bosses feel the need to keep piling up these stupid little projects for me that don't have shit to do with anything. All it is is busy work that keeps me from walking out of here at 4:30 everyday.

Maybe it's because my damn asthma (so the doctor says) has been keeping me busy coughing for over a week now, instead of letting me sleep at night.

Maybe it's because I haven't had a beer this week.

And maybe... It's because I got slapped in the face again today with the reason why I hate the corporate world... Upper managment does none of the dirty work, yet reeps all the benefits for those who do.

Anyhow, i'm done ranting and I'm gonna head to Buffalo Wild Wings for lunch. Gonna try and stay positive for the rest of the day and think of this song...
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=0dtCgYRrAUw&ob=av3e

Because after all, tonight is THURSDAY BITCHES!! So ya'll know it's time to head downtown for beer pong and tail chasing.

Wednesday, September 22, 2010

A Wee bit of Me...

 
{one} what is your happiest childhood memory?

Every little boy baseball player dreams of hitting a walkoff homerun to win the championship. When I was 13yrs old, I did just that. It was the league championship and we we in extra innings tied at 7. We were the home team so we batted last. Somehow I came to the plate with the bases loaded. My dad (the coach) said, "Just get me something in the outfield" because obviously a fly ball we could still tag on and win. First pitch was a ball. Second pitch... I crushed farther than any ball i have ever hit. GRAND SLAM! My walk off dream came true that day.

{two} what is your middle name?

Christopher



{three} what’s the habit you’re most proud of breaking?

Hmm... this one is hard because I really have no idea. I have never really given up a habit that I kow is bad I guess.



{four} what do you order when you order chinese food?

Orange chicken!



{five} what’s the best bargain you’ve ever found at a garage sale or thrift store?

Found an old pair of skis for $10 that I turned into Shot Skis.



{six} what’s the best costume you’ve ever worn?

I can't just say one... 2yrs ago I made a kissing booth costume for Halloween and that turned out AWESOME! Then this past spring my best friend and I dressed up like Superman and The Flash for beer pong tourney... that we WON!! lol


{seven} who’s your favorite game show host?

The guy on minute to win it


{eight} what’s your favorite breakfast food?

French Toast hands down.



{nine} what’s your least favorite word?

Hmm... I like words, so I don't really believe I have a least favorite.



{ten} describe something that happened to you for which you have no explanation.

A couple times in my life I have been in the car driving to a specific place and for some reason I forget where i'm going, but pick a totally different place to go to and just automatically drive there. I have had this happen when I am on the phone with people before, but that is because I was distracted. Honestly, a couple of times I have had no distractions at all, just forgot where I was going.



Monday, September 20, 2010

Case of the mondays

It's monday... and I really don't care to be working right now. In fact, it looks like i'm really working here huh? lol. I completely hate mondays... most weeks. I come into work competely unmotivated. I just got done spending 2 days sleeping in, being lazy all day, and staying up way too late. Now reality hits and I will be stuck in the office for the next 5 days. BLAH!!
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Mondays are pretty much a time to reflect on the weekend and think about what went really well, what didn't go so well, and if i'm going to change anything for this upcoming weekend. I think from here on out I am always going to have a "reflection monday" blog. So without no further ado, here is my reflection monday...

Lets just say that my weekends pretty much always start on thursdays. Even though I work on fridays, I still go out pretty much every thursday night. This week we tried a new bar which was ok, Tavern uptown. Then played pong at Lodos as usual. Jesse met up with me and Kels and she said she sucked at pong, but she ended up hitting the last 2 cups. Hell yea!!
Friday was totally unexpected. I planned to really just go home and go to bed early after my softball game, but Jesse invited me to come to her place and how could I resist a beautiful girls invitation?
I think that if this becomes a long term thing I am either gonna have to move closer to her or get a new gas efficient car, because I realized friday that she lives 38 miles from me. Thats 76 miles roundtrip, which is almost half a tank of gas for me! DAMN! It was worth it ;-) 
No reflection from saturday except that bitches be crazy as always.
Sunday did some good 4wheeling in the springs untill my check engine light came on. I'll figure that out later today. And then ended the day by grabbing some new jeep seats and visiting Jesse again on my way back to Denver.
What I am really taking from this weekend is that Jesse is very slowly growing on me, but yet I can't let go of the recent past yet. I am comparing 2 girls that can't be compared. The first just blew my mind like no one had ever done in 5 years. Jesse jumped into the picture right as Kris was running away and now I just don't know what to think. I've had relationships fail because there was no spark, now i've had a relationship fail because the spark was too hot. So where is this one? I think i just need to relax and not worry. I love spending time with her and I certainly can tell she loves spending time with me as well. Guess I need to leave it at that for now and get out of my worrying rocking chair.

Saturday, September 18, 2010

Fairy tales... no such thing!

One might wonder why this post is even material when I just got back from spending the evening with a great gal who I totally wanted to see, and couldn't even fathum spending the evening with anyone else.But my pessimistic side is coming out tonight... and in a hard way.
I watching yet another movie tonight where a couple starts dating, things start off amazing, and then they change some how and the relationship pretty much comes to an end. But... some how it all works out and the couple ends up together in the end any ways... I call BULLSHIT!! Wanna know the movie that I think is a true example of life? The Break Up, with Jennifer Aniston and Vince Vaughn. This movie doesn't have an ending where the couple gets back together. Things go crappy and they just end, and learn to move on without each other. Now I for one have always believed that you are who you are because of your experiences, and I don't see that any different for myself. So excuse me for being skeptical about this new road in my life, but I have only seen rejection lately and so i guess i'm just expecting the same to happen again.

I will never regret throwing myself out there looking for love, and I pity the people out there who can't do that. I have always been the same way... I give 110% into anything that I really want. I'm sorry if that seems overwhelming, but i'm just trying to show affection and show that i'm into you. Yea, i shouold probably start playing the "hard to get" card more often. But really what is the point? Emotions aren't light switches that you can just turn on and off. If I like you, you'll know it. I'm not going to play a stupid game with you of, "well i'll talk to you when i talk to you" That's crap in my opinion!

I'm going to stop myself now before i get too ranty here. But my point is, I hope that i don't fall back into an old tendancy of hiding and running just because i've been hurt. No, I still don't believe in fairy tales, because I haven't had a fairty tale in my life yet. But maybe one day.

Thursday, September 16, 2010

Just another Thursday

So it's time for blog #2 on here. My friend Jessica has really got my interest in all of this. I love the FB and love writing notes on there, but somewhere along the lines it became a little cliche in my opinion, so I don't write as many as I used to.

Today is Thursday, and for those who know me, that means it's time to head dowtown and scope out the talent. This has been a tradition for quite sometime now. I remember when Jake and I first started going downtown on Thursdays... It was only because it was ladies night at cowboy lounge lol. Man those were good times. Now days things have changed a lot... I've changed a lot. I still enjoy the whole downtown scene, but what was once a night to meet as many chicks as possible and leave the bars with a phone full of new numbers, has become more of a night to relax, tell stupid stories, play beer pong at lodos, and just enjoy spending time with the people I already know. "Scoping out the talent" or "downtown for ladies night" just isn't how I see it anymore. I see thursdays a completely different way now days. I can't really explain it i guess.

The one thing that I do know, is that I'm going downtown tonight to celebrate with my bar buddy Kels. I love that girl to death! I honestly can say that I have never had a bad night when that girl has been out with me. I'm also hoping that the "new girl" comes out and meets up with me. She's a sweet chick.